March On

 

 

 Well, what a blessing.

Thought about reaching out to a certain someone. basically the only person who has ever read these, besides aunt Debbie, but that's a different dimension. 

Hey, its me. I have too apologize for being so completely out of touch for so long. The fault is mine.

Today I am working on building. Empowering. Encouraging. Loving. Nurturing. 

Becoming.

We are greater. How lovely it would be to establish a meaningful correspondence. How alone we have been!!

SAD faces. But the best is yet to come. for us and for them. 

I'm confident its going to be a meaningful year. One full of love and growth. I'm also praying for wealth and happiness, but we'll see

We have a spiritual awakening. an epiphany. I'm just going to start broadening my horizons. I must. Being willing to do whatever it takes, I do not want to go back. Honestly. I'm not going that way and i'm tired of visiting. Its vital for me to swallow my pride and ego; work through fear. I am straddling isolating because I am afraid of people or isolating because its a rational thing to do because its a pandemic. 

On a lighter note. a) people have already gotten their stimulus checks. I'm really hoping and praying that everyone I know and myself get them promptly. It sure would help. 

I have registered for my summer classes that will fulfill my associates degree. which is kind of a bargaining chip. 

I'm also losing my fucking mind. really, talking to myself. ll that. when I used to do the clear it made me existentially paranoid. too much to function. schizophrenic episodes. hospitalizations. so getting it together is paramount. its critical. vital. the main objective. the primary purpose. the exact nature. 

Also, the stimulus money would 100% tell me its time to get another tattoo. perhaps one that i do myself. j/k. i did consider purchasing a gun, ehem a machine off the internet. 

guns hurt people.

machines make people beautiful 

if thats not the biggest crock of shit i've ever f***in heard ....

people hurt people. 

hurt people hurt people. 

and beauty very much IS in the eye of the beholder. 

and its subjective,

or objective

IDFK

who gives a shit

Walking Contradiction

 

 

 

 

They say choose a side

I say No

They say you must decide 

I say No

Republican. Democrat. Wealthy. Impoverished. Lucky. Unfortunate. This That These Those. 

A man can eat without his clothes. 

They say that I must be one or the other

I say No

They say if I don't choose, someone else will choose for me

I say go ahead.

They will be wrong.

Not me.

What if I don't like either of those choices? 

Why must I pick? Says who?

Or what?  

We live in a world full of natural beauty, and we are lucky to live a lifetime on earth.So why do people feel like being who they are is wrong? 

So why do individuals have to fear being different? 

Social Constructs. 

Media Projecting a certain idea of what is right, projecting an image of what is beautiful, and projecting enough to keep our eye busy and off he establishment with it's rhetoric and propaganda. 

Do not look this way

Nothing to see here

Just an independent governing body hovering about like a cloud

But Nature precipitates drops of truth. The rain cannot be stopped. They will do there best to cover and disguise the facts with their colorful lies and promises of change. 

Why shouldn't we celebrate who we are? Fear of retaliation. Being ostracized. Condemned. Exiled. 

Take away the filters. 

Don't listen to the ones who are full of doubt and hate. 

There will always be someone who holds up a piece of the puzzle, turning it in the light to examine it, claiming "this does not fit" 

And YOU must tell them

That it isn't supposed to. 

Being an EyesewLett

 

I don't f*** with any. Besides immediasewsh which would be family like my sister, mother and father. Okay so two friends. One si one sza. Other than that the world has become so small. But so manageable. Ha. So that's how this works. If I were to stay hyper focused and allow some things to happen I could probably stay out of my own way long enough to be successful. I'll be having a run at it. This whole college try is going to get the best of me because there's no other way. Apres Moi Le Deluge. 

Being from Kentucky is actually pretty damn cool sometimes. We got 20 inches of snow, ice and freezing rain during an eight day blizzard, then the sun comes out and melts the snow and it rains for 24 hours. Then its spring! Such a great place to be from. 

Really.