Well, what a blessing.
Thought about reaching out to a certain someone. basically the only person who has ever read these, besides aunt Debbie, but that's a different dimension.
Hey, its me. I have too apologize for being so completely out of touch for so long. The fault is mine.
Today I am working on building. Empowering. Encouraging. Loving. Nurturing.
Becoming.
We are greater. How lovely it would be to establish a meaningful correspondence. How alone we have been!!
SAD faces. But the best is yet to come. for us and for them.
I'm confident its going to be a meaningful year. One full of love and growth. I'm also praying for wealth and happiness, but we'll see
We have a spiritual awakening. an epiphany. I'm just going to start broadening my horizons. I must. Being willing to do whatever it takes, I do not want to go back. Honestly. I'm not going that way and i'm tired of visiting. Its vital for me to swallow my pride and ego; work through fear. I am straddling isolating because I am afraid of people or isolating because its a rational thing to do because its a pandemic.
On a lighter note. a) people have already gotten their stimulus checks. I'm really hoping and praying that everyone I know and myself get them promptly. It sure would help.
I have registered for my summer classes that will fulfill my associates degree. which is kind of a bargaining chip.
I'm also losing my fucking mind. really, talking to myself. ll that. when I used to do the clear it made me existentially paranoid. too much to function. schizophrenic episodes. hospitalizations. so getting it together is paramount. its critical. vital. the main objective. the primary purpose. the exact nature.
Also, the stimulus money would 100% tell me its time to get another tattoo. perhaps one that i do myself. j/k. i did consider purchasing a gun, ehem a machine off the internet.
guns hurt people.
machines make people beautiful
if thats not the biggest crock of shit i've ever f***in heard ....
people hurt people.
hurt people hurt people.
and beauty very much IS in the eye of the beholder.
and its subjective,
or objective
IDFK
who gives a shit
