So yeah, I'm afraid to write in the journal, there's only room for one more entry. I don't want to make that entry until I have bought a new journal. so notebook paper will have to do for now. Really its about releasing pressure from my brain, so it definitely takes care of the important part. -I'm gettin real close to burnin myself badly. I'm plating with fire. let me explain. I drug tested last week on friday, which was a mission, had to walk a total of five miles that day, but I feel good about the test, because I used the water trick, so it should come back clean, but I failed it the last time for oxycodone (vicodin) n who knows what else, but I think they're just runnin it for opiates. Well since friday ive done vicodin and smoked weed for the past three days. not good this means that I will have to use the water trick the next two times I test, at least. I dont wanna fake it anymore. I wanna pass a drug test the rite way because Im clean instead of just sneaking through. I need to hold myself up instead of back.
The real date should be listed as when this is posted. December 18th 2020.
I have been contemplating publishing a lot of my writing for quite some time now. And I'm just kinda lost as to where I should start. Ive most definitely been running for a while now. from everything to be honest. And its really really time for me to get it together. So Im getting close to it. I am going to put all of my writing, photos and artwork in chronological order. I want to do the affiliate marketing thing and make money online, of course, and Im maybe trying to coordinate things so that I can profit off of my own story. Is that wrong? lol. idk. So I can get all of my work, my writing, and my photos in order of time, then start consolidating my journals and work into months. then have a folder for each month.
In addition to stirring up all of that stuff from the past, I have wanted to tell my story as it is right now as well. And I have wanted to do a ninety day transformation as well. 2021 is going to be a big year for a lot of people, I'm just trying to ride the waves. But going from someone who has basically No online presence, no marketing experience, and only a high school education, the odds are stacked against me. not to mention all of the other oppression coming from different directions. that s exhausting in itself. So I've got all of these "excellent ideas" but have not put very many into practice.
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